Recommitment

I haven't posted about my weight loss efforts in a while for many reasons. I've been on a plateau for quite a long time now. It's gotten embarrassing. I've gained and lost the same 3-4 pounds since the beginning of the year. My weight loss chart looks like it has flat lined.

I have lots of excuses for why this has occurred, some good ones even.

• I lost a dear family member
• We went on vacation
• I had family visiting
• I've gotten out of the habit of exercising
• My taxes were due
• Food just tastes so good
• It's not fair! (whinny voice) Why do some people get to eat what they want and never gain and why can't I be one of those people
• It was Easter and they only sell Cadbury Cream Eggs and Brach's Chicks and Rabbits once a year, and therefore I must eat all I can now when they are available

However, I know that these are just excuses and it was these excuses that got me the 50 pounds that I have worked so hard to get rid of. Today is my weigh in day at Weight Watchers and I'm afraid I'm going to have a gain today (mostly thanks to Chicks and Rabbits).

As I was getting dressed this morning I reached out for my favorite pair of jeans and I found that they were tight - a tad uncomfortable even. This is new to me - they used to fit so well. In my pre-Weight Watchers days I would have blamed this on the clothes dryer. Now, however, I must admit that the jeans didn't just shrink and it's me who has grown. I like it much better when I put on my clothes and there is room enough for me to move around. In the previous months when I was losing weight that became a sensation that I loved and now I crave. I would put on a pair of pants and show Rominal how much extra room there was in them. To see that visual evidence of what I had done gave me motivation to keep on going. I need to dig down and find that motivation again.

I have been thinking a lot lately about how this is not a weekly battle or daily battle, but rather a minute-by-minute battle. Meaning that as I'm about to put the Chicks and Rabbits into my mouth I have to stop and think right at that very minute. "Will this Chick or Rabbit taste good? Yes, of course it will. Fantastic even. But will it help me go my goals? No."

So, today, in front of everyone, I am standing up and recommitting myself to my weight loss goals. This means exercising and watching what I put in my mouth. I might post more about this in the future - maybe that will help me keep on track.

Thanks for listening.